An Honest Conversation

If the bible is one thing, it’s honest. Honest about God, and, honest about us.

So, why are our prayers (when we do actually pray) so often filled with ‘God-talk’ that isn’t really, well, honest?

There are probably many reasons… Thinking we need to ‘clean ourselves up’ before talking to Him. Praying on auto-pilot: in other words, feeling that we should pray, but not wanting to take the time and energy to really engage God. Or, being so busy we don’t even really know how we’re doing, or, how we’re feeling.

1 Kings chapter 19 is a great prescription for those of us who struggle with a barren prayer life. It tells the story of a depressed Prophet Elijah, on the run from wicked Queen Jezebel, who wants to avenge him for putting her own, false prophets to death.

Elijah is scared, dejected and even asks God to end his life – “It is enough; now, O LORD, take away my life, for I am no better than my fathers.” By the way, this is the same guy who just watched the same God call down fire from heaven so fierce that it destroyed the stones used for the sacrifice (see ch. 18, esp. v.5).  Even when God has acted for us powerfully in the past, it’s so easy to forget that when things start going badly.

Do you ever find yourself feeling the same way? Tired of exams, boards, getting pimped, balancing your kids, spouse and work? All of us feel that way at least some of the time.

The challenge of 1 Kings 19 is that we need to take that to God honestly. He wants you to come to Him as you are. It’s a relationship!

Why not take a moment right now – just a minute – and talk to Him about how you’re ‘really’ doing? Maybe you need to be honest about how burdensome something is. Or a sin you’re fighting. Or how you need help to handle something He’s put on your plate.

Whatever your situation may be, I pray that you will find grace today as you engage Him honestly.


About Bryan Stoudt

On my personal website (, I help Christians follow Jesus in a noisy, broken world. I also have the privilege of helping Philadelphia's healthcare students and professionals do this as Area Director for the Christian Medical & Dental Associations (CMDA). More information at On a personal note, I'm fortunate to be married to my wonderful wife, Sharon. Together, we have four fantastic children. In my spare time, I enjoy roasting coffee, running, reading and learning foreign languages.
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